so adulthood definitely has it's ups and downs, like being able to do anything that i want, no one to answer to but the wife, but the downside is things such as bills and cars and crap like that, my piece of junk volvo is going to cost us more money to fix than we have left over after paying all the bills, not only do i need new brakes, rotors, and calipers for the back end of my car, i technically need a tune up meaning more money, but we are going to take this in stages and not get the tuneup but the brakes and stuff are going to cost us close to $650 to get it fixed which is more than what my next paycheck is so we are having to pray that we can somehow come up with the money other than asking my parents for money which is what i don't want to do but the problem partly is my dads insistence that i get this volvo eventhough it's had so many problems and so much money already done to it, in the past year it has needed an entire new front end basically, brakes, rotors, and a new axle, this all just after my dad bought the car, then 3 tires, an AC compressor, that doesn't even work now, so all together we are spending alot of money on this car, but it's not worth trading in because any new car will probably have the same problems, or so my dad says........... i so hate bills, and i so hate car problems i wish i could just get a car that runs well and i wish i could get a job that paid a little more so that we didn't have to struggle every month to meet the bills.... but that's one of the downfalls of being an adult, and that's the other problem when your wife is still a student and only has a part time job that basically covers her bills...... such is life i guess.....so i guess maybe when i'm a missionary this will be good training i guess.... sometimes the forest is so dense that all you can see are the dang trees that seem to suffocate you and keep you from rising above...

by no means is this a plea for purging, or a plea for sympathy, this is my life and i must live it somehow sometimes the shortest path to purification and sanctification is walking through the fire and getting torched to death

so again this is andrew and this is my life